Have you ever heard of stream of consciousness? Or chain of thoughts? My brain lately isn’t so much a chain as a tangle. One big pile of thoughts, reminders, alerts, decisions and items that slip through the cracks. What are some of those things? A normal day in my brain looks something like this: get up, what to eat, did I remember to log my food, oh did I take my meds, what’s in my planner, what’s on the calendar for today, must remember to get the car in for an oil change and don’t forget to call the dealership about the back up camera, need to pack stuff for Susan to take to Holly, is Holly doing okay, is she getting enough sleep, how is Adalynn, oh she’s cutting another tooth, I need to get Destiny into the dentist, does she need a physical, crap need to find out about summer camp and softball, is it too late to sign up…………and the thoughts just keep going and going. They keep me up at night, wake me up at night, distract me from my work. I’m forgetting things more. I forget to make my lists. Where is my brain lately?
What is this brain fog lately? Is it too many things on my plate? Am I trying to make too many changes in my life at once? I have no idea. I started my new weight loss journey a week and a half ago. With that came changes in what I eat and how I look at food. Gone are the days of grazing through the kitchen on whatever happens to be available. No chips, dips, candies, cookies, etc. I’m drinking a ton of water. The weight is coming off. I’m absolutely thrilled with my progress and the changes that I feel in my body and that I see on the scale. But this brain fog, hmmm, has me stumped. I’m trying to focus on so many things that I’ve actually lost focus. I think it’s time for me to step back, take a deep breath and prioritize…..well, my priorities. What is most important to me right now? My health and improving it. Without my health, I’m no good to anyone. Next, my family. Although scattered everywhere, I need to make sure that everyone is okay but remember that they’re all adults and can take care of themselves. My friends, I love them and it’s good to keep in touch. It’s been great to reconnect with a few of them on a different, deeper level. These are the things that are most important to me. This is where my focus needs to be. I need to make my lists, check them daily and make sure that I’m taking care of the most important things and letting the rest go. I can’t control everything, although that would be nice…..lol.
I’m so happy that I have this blog and you, faithful readers, to work these things out in my head. Or actually, get them out of my head and down somewhere that I can see them and sort them, discard them or keep them. Organize them. That’s what I need to do, organize my thoughts so that I can sleep better, eat better, be better. With my planner in hand and my bag of beautiful pens, my electronic calendar and my post it notes, I’m making my lists, setting my reminders, organizing my thoughts, my days and my life. One can’t live in constant chaos and hope to actually get things done. Or at least, get things done well. Welcome to the tangled chain of my thoughts and the chaos that exists in my head. I’m hoping that as these new changes are happening in my life, they become new, healthier habits and the chaos will quiet down. Until then, let chaos rein.
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